ahahahh!! i just managed to escape the claws of the security guard in sch by going by the side gate, which was opened by the extremely kind Drink Stall auntie. thank goodness i wasn't marked down as late. gonna invent some cock and bull story later.. gonna say i was in the toilet throughout the whole assembly or something.


oh man. i can see all the heads shaking, can hear people going "tsk, tsk" at my entry. yearh, yearh. i know. i should be advocating the benefits of coming to school early (none. unless u count the importance of being marked present and not be hounded by my civics tutor for an mc or letter). but i can't help the fact that i stay so far away and that darn bus is so unreliable. when i'm early, it's late. when i'm late, it rarely ever comes.

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you don't even notice that i'm gone , that i'm not even there. u tell me that i'm growing distant. but did u even make me feel welcomed in the first place? all that hard work and no one noticed. all galavanting to your own little events, planning your own little activities. that's it. i'm not gonna have anything to do with you people anymore. if you're not gonna include me then that's just fine. there's no place in my life for people who doesn't appreciate people as a whole by their dedication. i mean, i could have just dropped out anytime. but did i leave the team in the lurch? didn't i try to make it when i had the time? and i worked damn hard. so what if i didn't excel by tremendous amounts. at least i did get better didn't i? i guess you pple didn't even care. you want to know why i was so quiet? it's cos there's nothing to say, you dun even include me in your conversations. you closed the circle yourself. dun try to put the blame on me for not trying to be open. you didn't even give me the chance. i'm not gonna have anything to do with you. NOTHING at all. you didn't even make me feel wanted. you didn't even remember me.


nice knowing you. now get out of my life since you dun care if i actually existed or not.