you just might make me believe

what's your mode of transport?
mine is the sun.
when it rises dripping from
the sea when it falls like honey on
the trees when it swallows up
clouds my soul moves with it.

mine is you.
when you lift your eyes
when you look straight ahead
when you try to speak my
heart moves with you.

11:21:00 PM
Monday, November 14, 2005
bop to the top
being a neutral party can be a good and bad thing sometimes, depending on the situation. being neutral makes you more objective and less swayed by either camps. that's a good thing i guess. but it also has it's consequence for you end up being in the middle of things without meaning to. it's a horrible feeling for i'm always so afraid that i'll pass down the wrong message to either parties, making the situation even worse.

sometimes i wonder if the path i've taken is the right one. am i right to keep my inner feelings to myself? am i right to restrain myself emotionally? that's what i've been doing these past few days- trying to keep my profile low and letting myself go unnoticed. smiling, showing true joy at having fun, having a sense of contentment, comfort and satisfaction- are getting pretty hard these days. all i can do is just present this positively fake joyful exterior.

honesty is the best policy