in sch now.. trying to kill time before my meeting at 5pm..


yesterday, right after i came home from the retreat at noon, i just simply died on my bed. like seriously. i didn't even realise that my aunties and my uncles visited the house. They, according to my sis, were making so much noise with the tv blaring and their super loud voices BUT i didn't even stir, not even in the slightest bit. i think that that 6 hours when i was effectively dead was the only period of time throughout the whole of yesterday that i wasn't thinking. even in the taxi ride home, i was actually thinking in my sleep. no wonder i was in a coma. too much brain activity. ahahahh..

i felt that the retreat, or rather the interview during the retreat, had caused me to think quite a lot these past few erm, hours- abt myself, abt what i really want for myself- not my parents, my teachers or what my friends want of me. i haven't analysed and "talked" to myself that way for a super long time.

haven't been truly happy in a really really REALLY long time, except maybe during the jamboree. but now, i can honestly say that i'm happy. i really am.


now to think of it, i actually found myself back there.. hahahh.. i really did.

cool.

:)

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- take things one step at a time. u can't always see the big picture. sometimes u just have to take a risk for that chance might never come again. at the end of the day, u dun want to regret saying "i should have done this, i could have done that". by then, it'll be too late.

- knowing what's important to u.

- laugh more. smile more. enjoy urself more. ultimately. just be happy. that's all u need to ask from urself. to be happy.