ahh! i've finally finished my NYAA after procrastinating for the longest time, ever since i was in sec 2. okay okay, so it's just bronze. may not seem like such a big deal to most people but it is to me. i've actually conquered this laziness of mine. er. at least for a while. and with a little pressure of course. time to move on to bigger things. like nyaa gold perhaps? hehehh..

so i'm ambitious. but it's just part of my nature of a capricorn, a january baby. so blame the stars man. but at least my competitive streak seems non-existant. i mean, unless it's for something that i really really REALLY REEAALLLYYY want, then, i'ld do whatever is in my power to get it. but i can be seen as an over-achiever, and in the process, tend to burn myself out. that was what acutally happened in upper sec. i wanted to be involved in so many things (i've got this thing abt wanting to be useful and always sticking my hands into things just so i'll be busy. u see. i'm weird.) that i burnt out. i really did. almost fried my brains to the point where it got so scrambled that i couldn't think. like at all.

seems like history is repeating itself this year. damn.

already dropped soccer, which was something i was interested in but not entirely committed to. so i got to experience playing in a REAL game and got a medal to boot. i think that's enough for me. but with ventures and council clashing- my goodness, it reminded me of when i was in both guides and prefects, having to always choose between going for one meeting over the next. didn't help much that i was in the exco. at least, this time, i refused to run for exco in both cases. seems ok right? wrong. i didn't forsee the fact that each major council event had it's own adhoc, own committee made up of different councillors everytime. so. do i regret the decision to join council? honestly? sometimes. but what's done is done. i might as well make the most of the rest of the council term and make myself proud of the efforts that i've put in so far.


ohkay, moving on from my midnight rantings..


the o'level results were out on fri. and i guess i couldn't help but feel as though some of the people whom i knew who took the exam last year, their results fell way below their expectations. like as though their efforts were put to waste. if there were any efforts at all that is. i just pray that they'ld choose the right paths and not regret their decisions later on. so choose carefully guys. please. a little soul searching is needed for ultimately, it all comes down to what u really want for yourself and not what ur bro or ur mom or ur uncle says. u've heard their peace. it's time u heard ur own voice.

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so tmr, i mean today, i'm gonna have a gp test. and what am i doing? not sleeping. oh man. i'm turning into an owl! like as though my glasses are not big enough.

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STILL addicted to Relient K- Be My Escape. all S and Z's fault for blasting it. bahh.

oh, and my love for bsb has rekindled again! mwahahahh

and i think the pussycatdolls are pretty good. i'm talking abt their songs. oh and the lead singer has nice abs. so jealous. bleh.