you just might make me believe

what's your mode of transport?
mine is the sun.
when it rises dripping from
the sea when it falls like honey on
the trees when it swallows up
clouds my soul moves with it.

mine is you.
when you lift your eyes
when you look straight ahead
when you try to speak my
heart moves with you.

5:30:00 PM
Sunday, March 19, 2006
bop to the top
just had a sudden thought.

whenever my sis watches a movie at home and she knows that an embarrassing moment in the movie is coming- like the main character humiliates herself in front of tens and thousands of people- she'll immediately leave the room rather than face the scene. i mean, it's not even her who's embarrassing herself so why's she so affected?

maybe that's how we are. we run at the slightest possibility that people would think us weird or different. maybe it's cos she or anyone of us really, could relate to being humiliated and it's just so painful.

i think a part of me feels that if i watch this moment in the movies, then in real life, i wouldn't be afraid of making a fool out of myself. i mean, MTV's Whatever Things is just simply the best show ever where the cast actually does the dumbest and craziest things. i kinda feel sorry for them but the stuff that they do.. feel as though i'ld like to do them myself. the thought of me running BLINDFOLDED into the sprint hurdles sounds painful but ah.. seems fun though. ahah.

when people humiliate themselves doing stupid things in public, u'll usually just take a step back to watch and point and ridicule. but inside, u'ld actually admire their guts and wished that u could do it too.

well, that's what i do anyway.

is it wrong to be nice to someone u don't particularly like just so that u could spare this person's feelings and also to give a chance to ur own self that maybe if u get to know this person, overtime u'ld eventually actually start to like him/her and be a true friend instead of just pretending to be one?

i mean, i believe in being nice to everyone, even people i don't really like but am i mean to give this false impression that i actually like them to begin with?

i think i'm thinking too much.
or feeling guilty.

or both.

honesty is the best policy