i've realised that i've never been able to take to compliments easily- i'm always ALWAYS surprised when someone gives me one. and cos of that, i wouldn't be able to accept it graciously or pretend to be all bashful and gush over it when i really am not. as a result, the same few kind-hearted people would probably think that i'm just this snobbish irritating perfectionist. but what the heck. i dun have a high expectation of myself; it's because i have such a low one that i'm always surprised.

so. don't be offended if i sometimes just keep silent and not acknowledge the compliment. it's just that i could never bring myself to.


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ultimately, it is my decision. but i'm just afraid of what the outcome might be.

cowardance.