i've been running away from things lately. i'm not entirely sure why. maybe it's cos i get so involved in something that everything else just builds up around me, until i realise that there's this huge barrier that i can't go over. it's that feeling that u think that u have an excuse to feel overwhelmed and to be worried over something but deep down inside, u feel guilty because after all, they are just excuses, very trivial things that u try ur best to exaggerate, to get out of things. but it's the pressure that somehow threatens to crack me. even when i know that there isn't really any pressure at all. that's the odd part i guess.

just wanna curl up and hide under my blanket.

or just run


and run


and run.

not really going anywhere.


i just push everything away the moment i get too close. it's like as though i don't have a large enough emotional capacity. that loner in me dictates.
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i know this is a whacked entry but what the heck. assume all you want.