you just might make me believe


what's your mode of transport?
mine is the sun.
when it rises dripping from
the sea when it falls like honey on
the trees when it swallows up
clouds my soul moves with it.

mine is you.
when you lift your eyes
when you look straight ahead
when you try to speak my
heart moves with you.



not now. please.
1:38:00 PM
Tuesday, May 02, 2006
bop to the top
in the council room now.. on jinfa's laptop (hoho!).. been taking a lot of naps during the classes throughout the whole of today.. until ms victor caught me that is.. bah. anyway, council camp started last fri at 6pm and had ended yesterday at 1.30pm. my goodness. those were the four days that i would remember for a really really REALLY long time.

all the shouting and screaming at the elects.. gosh.. surprisingly i haven't lost my voice yet.. maybe it was cos i let CZ shout all the things that i had wanted to say myself. been so used to seeing him for the past few days that it was so weird not seeing him today- like as though i had a long-lost bro.

throughout the whole camp, my feelings practically ran on a rollercoaster ride- there were times when i felt so emotionally drained that i felt that i could hardly feel at all; there were times when i was so proud of the elects and that there were times when i was so incredibly disappointed. no, not in the elects, but in myself for believing and over-expecting what they were capable of at that point of time. too many things have happened to be condensed in this entry but i just have one main thing to say- i have said this so many times and i will say it again- like OH MY GOD they have SO MUCH potential. BUT THEY JUST DON'T HARNESS IT. there's so so so much that they can do together but it's really such a pity that they don't trust each other enough to work as one. i pray that they'll be able to work this through or else this would definitely make life difficult for them later on in their council term.

tmr's internal elections and it's really hard to say who'ld actually be the pres or in the exco for that matter. i mean, it's pretty difficult to envision any of them actually. i'll just see how things go tmr then.

and with the elections, i think the reality of us stepping down is sinking into many of us and it's already filling me with a sense of dread, just waiting. i don't know what i'ld do without council. really. i don't.


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have this sudden urge to hug all the four walls of this council room. i don't think i can bear to let it go.

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up to the sky we believe in each other
gone were the times we called ourselves strangers
we made a difference
now more than ever

we are the 28th

honesty is the best policy