sometimes i want so hard to like what i see to say what i feel to think to think and to seek what i know i won't be able to find.

sometimes i don't know who's speaking my thoughts, who's making the decisions that i make, who's the me who's constantly lifting and pulling me down

sometimes i feel this emptiness as though there should be something more but i just can't put a finger on it cos it only feels that way for a while, when i'm quiet and listening, just listening

sometimes i feel nothing and i pretend to empathize to relate to feel and then i'll feel guilty cos i never let anything out, never ever unless i have to

sometimes when it feels too hard too heavy, i keep on dreaming hoping wishing praying that the weight goes away even when i know it never does

it never does.


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an emo moment.
trying to keep life in perspective i guess.