Isn't the picture (above) amazing? Too bad I can't claim it as my own though. Hahah.

Okay. So my prelim results aren't fantastic. There's still a lot of stuff that I need to cover so I'm like desperately trying to spot topics, do extra assignments and am beginning to book consultation slots (which are already filling up so fast that it's INSANE).

Problem: I'm frequently finding myself trying to snap out of these 10-second panic moments- it's the kind where I just freeze and start thinking about the revision that I haven't done and all the things that everybody else seems to know but I don't and then I'ld start counting down the number of days left (32 !&%$# days). It just freaks me out that I'm getting so freaked out.

On top of that, it's hard trying to stick to my revision schedule 'cos I'm just so slow; but yeah, I know I've got to, I must. Even when it might give me a heart attack.

Thank goodness it's the fasting month though.. at least then I won't be so tempted to munch down on junk and waste time rummaging through the fridge for something to eat while mugging.

(But I still can't help the staring-out-of-the-window syndrome. Maybe I should just close the curtains. But then, the curtains themselves are really too darn ugly to look at. But hey, that's the whole point right? aiyah.)

Received a booklet on the available Ministry scholarships today. The career guidance tutor said that it'll be "inspiring". Hah. It's just extremly daunting just looking at them with most requiring an S'Paper or two. The only scholarship that seems to be most appealing (and attainable) is the one offered by the Ministry of Home Affairs. I think the 4 year bond isn't too bad.. I mean, it'll be nice to know that after completing uni, there's already a job lined up for me.

Wait a minute. Why am I talking about the end of uni anyway? I'm not in uni yet. There's still no certainty that I'll get in and get the course that I want, especially with the dragon-year competition- I mean, O'Levels was proof enough. It's extremely scary. But I'ld have to try. I have to.

Sigh.

Also,
read that there'll no longer be streaming and that the kids would now be allowed to study whatever subjects they liked. DARN. (I'm not supposed to swear during Ramadan so this is as far as i can go. For now.)

Lucky buggers.