you just might make me believe

what's your mode of transport?
mine is the sun.
when it rises dripping from
the sea when it falls like honey on
the trees when it swallows up
clouds my soul moves with it.

mine is you.
when you lift your eyes
when you look straight ahead
when you try to speak my
heart moves with you.

6:13:00 PM
Sunday, January 21, 2007
bop to the top
i'm so PISSED right now. shit you. you tell me yearh that it's my fault for not telling you earlier but seriously, you didn't give me much in the first place. so if a little something cocks up and causes you a LITTLE inconvenience, you won't do it? even when it'll definitely benefit us by a long shot? if you don't want to talk to that person, i'll do it. i'm not afraid of us "tarnishing" your group's good name (if that's ever possible). yearh, so WHAT if it's not nice. but it's like, THEY should be the ones indepted to us for taking up these places, THEY should cater to us and not US to them. i'm sure they're more than willing to relent since they are the ones into this damn thing. if not, we don't take part at all lah. and anyway, it's all really REALLY short notice. if i was given a whole month, it would have made a mega huge difference. this may not be such a huge deal to you, but it is to ME. after all, it WAS entrusted to ME. i know you're not happy with it or with me. you may not see it now but it'll be worth it in the end. you may see me even more lowly after this but i don't care. did you hear me? I DON'T CARE WHAT YOU THINK OF ME. and now it seems as though i'm the one who's "wrong". if you keep thinking of it that way, then fine. i don't want to involve myself in any part of this. i'm not gonna bother acknowledging you or make the effort to make a cheerful face if you do come around. and you. you had to push for it when i specifically told you not to. you were the one who had to confirm it and i'm the one who has in the shittiest position now. damn you. don't tell me not to stress out about such a 'simple' thing. it's not simple and you don't know it cos you're not doing it. support? SUPPORT?! what bull. so yearh. go ahead. blame me. but remember, when the stuff comes in and turns out it pays off, it was ME who was doing YOU and your blardy group a blardy huge favour.

a couple of weeks ago, i would have blindly and gullibly accepted this. but as you can see, the place has changed me.

honesty is the best policy